Mid Life Crisis??

This year I will turn 48!!!  Crazy.  So much closer to the dreaded 50 :-)  Anyway, I am finding this stage of life to be more enduring than ever.  There is definitely this feeling of "I'm just settling" right now.  Part of it has to do with the kids and not trying to upset the flow of things.  This is especially true for Lydia.  She struggles with change and has commented several times that we cannot move or anything until she graduates from high school.  Considering her personality...this is true and we have resigned that we will just stay in this holding pattern for now.  It's a comfortable life but not overly inspiring.  Somehow, I always imagined I would be doing something more "out there".  I think that I would enjoy some short-term missions work but just don't see that happening right now.  So I guess that I'm in a mid-life crisis of sorts.  Wishing I was a couple of years farther down the road but desperately trying to keep my focus on this present moment.  Wishing that we attended a church with a more vibrant life and enthusiam in youth ministry but settling for what we have here and supporting the great pastor we have (and our church doesn't necessarily embrace).  I just need to keep laying these things at the feet of Jesus and TRUST that he will bring me through this part of life!